you're my flowers in an empty field.

even though its cold outside,
you make me nice and warm.
sunshine on a cloudy day


i'd still kiss a sick boy.

please don't fly away.

you're like a dove,

unfair to keep caged.

your beauty kept hidden

might as well be aged.

you're like a dove,

i hold in my hands

tenderly, i wait,

they wouldn't understand.

they say "if you love them..."

but i can't let you go.

you're like a dove,

your eyes so pure,

they lure me to you

i'm the disease, you're the cure.

be my dove,

but don't fly away.

i can never seem to get you off my mind.

its always my fault.

i don't understand whats happening.

and don't say there's nothing wrong.

there is.

and don't tell me its my fault.

this waiting game is never ending.

just as things get better,

they start to get much worse.

i've never been a mind reader

and this feels much like a curse.

is it you or is it me?

your tears leave cuts

and along my sleeve

my heart lays open

for you to read.

i let you in,

so why can't you

return the favor?

is it me or is it you?

i might as well be gone.

you open your mouth

as if to speak

but nothing comes.

this waiting game is never ending.

the best part of believe is the LIE.

all of this was for nothing.
who to trust anymore,
i knew it was too good to be true.
i never liked you.

just a liar and a fake,
just like the rest.
now just explain to me:
how do you hold your head up
when your missing a spine?

"you're already heartless, so you shouldn't need this anymore" - stephanie rotz

my first love:

"Where is your boy tonight?
I hope he is a gentlemen.
Maybe he won't find out what I know:
You were the last good thing about this part of town.

When I wake up,
I'm willing to take my chances on
the hope I forget
that you hate him more than you notice I wrote this for you.
(For you, so)

You need him. I should be him...
I could be an accident but I'm still trying.
That's more than I can say for him.

Where is your boy tonight? I hope he is a gentleman.
Maybe he won't find out what I know:
you were the last good thing about this part of town.

Someday I'll appreciate in value,
get off my ass and call you...
but in the meantime I'll sport my
brand new fashion of waking up with pants off
at four in the afternoon.

You need him. I should be him...
I Could be an accident but I'm still trying.
And That's more than I can say for him."
- Peter Lewis Kingston Wentz III


The man that wrote this, wrote it for me on days like today. When i first heard theses lyrics, i didn't know that they would be applicable to my future, but its as if someone out there is singing them to me at this very moment. Someone is telling me that everything will be okay. Thank you.

sad.

i'm afraid i'm missing you

i'm afraid you won't be there when i look back

get back

i'm afraid i'm missing you

i'm afraid you'll have forgotten who i am.

monster in your bed

Shut your mouth and stitch these lips.

Don't say a word, its all an illusion.

Take a deep breath; rest your mind.

Take a deep breath and try again.

Your imagination is racing into the night,

Creating monsters in your bed.

They'll keep you warm for now,

But who's there when they're gone?

Goodnight, Sleep Tight,
Don't let the bed bugs bite.
My venom piercing the night.
Take a deep breath and try again.

This drama sat shotgun

"Left your t-shirt in my room

Still smells of you

And the picture you hung on the door

Lay smashed, picture perfect

Explains now

Clearly nothing left but a memory

We only made out

You never kissed me

That's how I learned to hold back all feeling

Wait, please don't go

I won't stay

All these words on replay

I'm okay, It's all right

Good to know that you're fine

Pretending everything is right to make it better

I'll hide my make-up smeared eyes

To show that I'm fine

Some how you have managed to get under my skin

More than anyone ever did

And if every hole makes a scar

And every scar marks it's place

Then I will never live freely without your trace

And it'll never be fair

I wrote my songs for you and you never even cared

So I'll forget you

I'll wash your t-shirt and kill the pillow

And cut you out of pictures

Wait, please don't go

I won't stay

All these words on replay

I'm okay, It's all right

Good to know that you're fine

Pretending everything is right to make it better

I'll hide my make-up smeared eyes...

This drama sat shotgun

My eyes rained like autumn

Only the glove box knows how the story goes

Now that this bandage is brokenAnd the cuts left in open

I'll tell you just one thing

This wasn't worth the sting."

- Automatic Loveletter

automatic:

squeezed until there's nothing left;

i'm only useful when i'm in your arms.

out of sight, out of mind.

i've never been so exploited.

only good for what i can do,

otherwise just a face in a crowd.

out of sight, out of mind.

i've never felt so cheap.

read my price tag:

what am i worth to you?

"i hate this game."

life isn't clovers and mondays.

one day i'll accept that.

BEWARE!Nightmare!

hopefully i'm your worst nightmare.

"selfish"

go ahead,

drive me away.

i deserved it all along.

"selfish."

go ahead,

call me by name:

"Selfish".

tag me,

label me,

warn all the others.

warning:
"Selfish"

approach with caution.

heart on my shoulder

my heart's on my shoulder

for you to see.

i'm trying my hardest.

please,

believe in me.

the ace of all heartss.

The ace will find you eventually.

The hearts she breaks,

the love she takes,

she knows no mercy.

Thats why they call her the "ace".

cheap thrills, love kills.

I'm bored of cheap and cheerful I want expensive sadness Hospital bills, parole Open doors to madness I want you to be crazy 'coz you're borin' baby when you're straight I want you to be crazy 'coz you're stupid baby when you're sane I'm sick of social graces Show your sharp-tipped teeth Lose your cool in public Dig that illegal meat'Coz love is just a dialogue You can't survive on ice-cream You got the same needs as a dog It's alright (it's alright) to be mean (to be mean) - the kills

nothing's like a fairytale anymore.

drink this

in no place to be giving sane love advice
i'm crazy, i'm mental,
a liar and a fake.
mumbling incantations you're supposed to hear;
simply a messenger
of another bearer's news.
my own medicine tastes sour,
but is worse to swallow.
i'm no doctor,
but we'll make a prescription.

diagnosis incomplete.

i'm no doctor,
but i probably need one.

ageless neverland

marry me under the moonlight,

i'll wait forever if i have to.

i'm too vogue.

thank you karl lagerfeld.

Let the games begin.

back to school...

and i refuse to be just another number.

stephanie rotz. this is fantastic.

maybe change isn't such a bad thing

SAY CHEESE!

did brytanie daigle "like" your photo on facebook?

well she "liked" mine.

Happy 20th Bill und Tom

RIP the lion hair.

the happy couple

miss Dream, meet madame Nightmare.