busted.

you've never seen me like this before

don't think you have

cause you haven't.

i left my self behind metal bars

i turned the key

and bolted it shut.

this youthful innocence can't stand a chance

i'm fearless and daring

pushing all the limits.

i'll push me, right off the edge

you don't know what to expect

and neither do i.

monsters under the bed

under the covers, i find myself dreaming

dreaming of living and dreaming of giving

giving you everything, all that i've got

my heart and my soul, which isn't alot.

under the covers, i find myself dreaming

dreaming of you and dreaming of me

the night sky is burning a hole in my eye

i cover my face hoping to see yours by my side.

under the covers, i find myself dreaming

dreaming of seeing and dreaming of believing

you changed my mind, twisted my words

led me down the path to the point of no return.

wrong wrong, all wrong

i know i'm not supposed to be this way

you're like a childhood dream these days

something familiar, i've seen before

yet new and exciting, you leave me wanting more.

i know i'm not supposed to go this way

but perhaps backwards is better these days

you see where you've been and not where you're going

but being blind ain't so bad as long as i'm not holding back.

i know i'm not supposed to think this way

i dance with the future alot these days

making up stories, entwining our fates

dreaming is fun until the night fades away.

head aches

its you without me that gets to me

a feeling of nausea that wont let me be

a childhood loss somehow seems fatal

no longer on two legs, i can't stand alone

you are a part of me

probably something crucial

cause you never seem to leave my sight

even if i'm alone.

not normal.

normalicy is unknown here.

reality is unknown here.

but i am known here.

and i know here.

Model: Stephanie Rotz, Better than normal.

time machine

if i could take what i knew now

and push it all back in time

i know i'd be better at this

and i'd tell myself we'd be allright.

you.

with dreams come nightmares

and everything in between.

kiss of death

a kiss so deadly it stings my lips
thoughts of losing you weighed down at my hips.
i bite my tounge and refuse what to say
all in the fear of driving you away.

lets make this last as long as it can
until i can't breathe, according to plan
my lips are numb, my heart rips through
but i have to keep going, until my face turns blue.

bruises from reality

you tell me to go

and do what i want

this freedom thing

is harder than i thought.

ask me to stay,

just me and you.

i'm begging you now

just me and you.

it all seeps in,

deeper than before

you don't want me with you

not anymore.

please dont leave

please just stay

all you need to do is ask

and i'll never be away.

i never thought i'd question

if there was someone else

but reality hits hard

when you're somewhere else.

girl of my dreams

who is this girl who i've dreamed to be?

the one who's laugh is taunting me?

her skin so pale, her face so warm

a smile so true, she believed in me.

i could never be her,

not quite perfect,

but she keeps coming back,

as if i'm worth it.

who is this girl who i've dreamed to be?

someone staring back at me.

she's loving and kind forever by my side

i know she'll always be there for me.

she lets me take pictures

for hours on end.

her endurance of pain

i'll never comprehend.

who is this girl i've dreamed to be?

someone better than i ever hoped to be.

Model and more: Stephanie Rotz

still born love

a still born love

with no chance to live

no chance to grow

i'd give everything

if only for a change

and hope our love would last.

dead from the start

i dreaded this

my nightmares come true

but nothing compares to the sense

that somehow i lost you.

a dreamer

You're still in a dream- make believe.

smoked mirrors

My reflection in mirrors, the only company i'll get
living with mistakes, i'll forever regret.
you're no longer here, but i still am
left to face this mirror, i'll never forget.

Biting and scratching for a way to escape,
but we'll never get out.

get out.

get out.


ALIVE.

Irving Penn

Any resemblance whatsoever?

Gemma Ward

By Irving Penn

Stephanie Rotz

By Carlie Woodworth

clouds in a cloudless sky

silver linings are overrated.

lets not be friends,

if anything enemies,

destined to be

less than this.