time travel

turn just back the clocks
stay a bit longer
through time we'll travel
a just bit longer
a bit just longer
a longer bit just
bit longer just
longer bit just
just longer bit
bit longer
longer
just

stay.

quite fitting

oh dearest Zombie girl,
tomorrow is a new day afterall,
and this sickness is likely applicable.

oh yes, yes they did.

Lead-singer and style icon Bill Kaulitz will visually put the show together with the twins Dan and Dean of international mega lable DSQUARED.

14.04.2010 FR Paris BERCY

yes. yes i will.

you be cards, i'll be the beat.

each card represents a decision, idea, or task that must get completed or decided.

yet i can't stop humming "angel versus eel, owl versus dove".

we're like the same person.


but of a different gender.

smiles of glass

if i say
i'm okay
with tears in my eyes
when i say
that i'm fine
you don't dare question why

so peel back your lips.

smile and let your ignorance show.

no more lies
no more cheating
don't you dare hold this back
i can see
in your eyes
i can't bear the attack

so peel back your lips
smile and let your ignorance show.

once upon a nine.

once upon a time,

we're on cloud nine.

once upon a nine,

we're on a cloud of time.

you're my hunny bunny.

happy nine, i love you.

trapped.

Updike:

monster. not dead, but alive.

kept here for you to see. living in shadow, living in fear, of what the enemies might hear.

waiting. set me free.

Edit Me.

The corn maze: in the style of Dylan Thomas

I recall the bite of the air, nipping at my flesh, nibbling at my neck, the black of the night, swallowing the bright, the tiny bulbs of light, bobbing, bobbing, the crunch of the corn, the crashing and laughing and faces that were smiling, children blundering, the smell of the crops, of soil and stalks, like a forest before me with hands that were grabbing and tugging and pulling my hair, gnarled and decrepit, as frail and fragile as the skin of an old woman, yet less likely to tear, we’re following faces into unknown places, unknown abyss that was scratching and slapping the skin that was bare, running and panting till I ran out of air, thoroughly lost, deep in the maze with no way back, searching for something, those bulbs of light, bobbing and nodding, but only blackness met our gaze, surrounded and crowded by nothing but corn, a chill in the breeze knocks at my knees, the only warmth from tears that streamed down my cheeks, burning and turning round every bend, every corner, searching for a crevice to hide, to creep into, fingers were numbing, feet were fumbling, bodies were toppling, and exhaustion was drawing nearer; hearts were pounding, a drum inside my head, growing louder and louder with each stomp of my feet, beating and hammering the compressed dirt, shrunken and shriveled husks tickled mittens and jackets, spinning around, a new path freshly discovered, waiting to be pursued, chasing death himself, taunting, jeering, tempting, leading, searching for those bobbing bulbs of light, comforting and calming, growing brighter and brighter, the finish line almost in sight, coming closer to the faces we left behind, waiting for what seems like hours, the final reprieve of an exit, like a single hole in (an endless tunnel), familiar smirks of the night sky as we part, each muscle let go of its immeasurable hold on the bones to which we clung, warmth, cheeks gaining back their humanly glow, growing slowly, flooding, rushing to replenish their redness, tingling and burning as they crawl their way back under my skin: a new haven.

she's chasing me.

so much to do, and no time to do it.

here's MY list:

1. 1. do a literature presentation tomorrow
2. 2. model tryouts tomorrow
3. 3. make cuts, organize scenes by the end of tomorrow
4. 4. go babysitting wednesday
5. 5. get some paramore tickets
6. 6. gather my entries for the rockton fair and deliver them by thursday
7. 7. giant art sketch due wednesday next week
8. 8. go to work once this weekend
9. 9. spend some time with my boyfriend
10. 10. pay evelyn for metric tickets
11. 11. figure out what i'm doing for halloween
12. 12. not kill myself from over exertion or stress
13. 13. eat healthy and not gain weight.
14. 14. oh yeah, cancel my driver's lesson cause its on the same day i go see paramore
15. get something for steph's birthday
16. have carolyn come over!
17. figure out when we have time for a fashion show meeting and how to keep people occupied
18. oh crap we have a business test tomorrow.

wow will i ever get anything accomplished?